A liver transplant meeting was held on the 7th of December 09. I had requested a copy of the results.
My fingers trembled slightly and my pulse rate increased somewhat, as I gingerly opened the letter.
I had NOT been placed on the LIST
My jaw dropped and a wave of disappointment swept throughout the whole of my body.
I was stunned. I had felt so sure that I would be placed on the list. After all,
I had been told I was considered to be "low risk" How wrong we can be !!!
The reason for this decision was that, the echo scan that I had during the assessment tests.
Had appeared to pick up a "turbulent flow" (shunt) noted in the descending Aorta left pulmonary area "gulp"
Further scans had been called for and were in fact taken on the 4th Jan at the Newcastle general.
My Consultant whom I saw yesterday the 28th. Seemed doubtful that there existed a shunt,
as I would have been feeling ill. this was nice to learn as I do not feel ill at all. In fact I feel good.
My consultant told me also that while the surgeons were dealing with the two tumors (successfully)
they had discovered a third 2cm. tumour. The surgeons had taken no action against this
3rd pigeon egg.
Another Liver transplant meeting shall be held this Monday the 1st Feb.
The Surgeons shall decide then if I am to be placed on the list, or that more tests are to be called for..
I am feeling a little more confident compared to how I have been feeling,
since I first read about the " shunt " 6 weeks ago.
You can imagine how delighted I was to hear my Consultant utter those beautiful words that
" she doubted the existence of a shunt "
I am assuming the 3rd tumour is to be dealt with at a later date, if necessary.
I have requested once again a copy of the results of the liver transplant meeting to be held on Monday.
I hope it makes better reading than the last one.
I choose NOT to make public the findings of the last transplant meeting regarding the shunt.
as I had trouble with keeping the dark thoughts at bay.
If I had published, then it would have been in my face everyday. "not good"
SO, all in all it is a bitter sweet pill I swallow.
My Consultants "doubts" sweet, and the 3rd tumour, bitter.
I shall be updating again just as soon as I learn the results of Mondays meeting between the gods of medication and Nature.
In the mean time, I am still clad in my bloodstained battle dress and ready to fight, even if it kills me.
To those that should read the above, I wish you the very best for the weekend.
It is the brightest "FULL MOON" tonight of 2010.
Perhaps I should take that as a good omen.