Yesterday was my first Anniversary of living without alcohol, yes one entire year.
I have experienced no hardship with dispensing with the habit.
It is as if a switch had been turned on, or off in my brain. My desire for alcohol ceased
the very instant I saw with unbelieving eye’s, the two pigeons egg’s
that had been discovered by the Ultra sound.
I recall walking along the path home from the Hospital, the very same path I had enjoyed
walking along with Cherno countless times. But this day was different. "Very"
I arrived home gripped by shock, I was aware then that my life would never be the same ever again.
I miss the nights of fun and laughter with the lad’s, the pool, the darts and the
crazy midnight choirs. All gone now.
I could have continued to drink (as many do) in a vain attempt to escape
the dark thoughts. But I chose to face my future with a clear mind, so with a steely determination
and my faithful buddy Cherno at my side. I tread the black mile with a song of hope
in my heart. Yes I shall "Rage rage for sure against the dying of the light"
I am to be admitted to the Freemans Hospital for another blast of Chemo. very soon.
I hope this time my recovery shall be less uncomfortable than previously. "gulp"
But before this, I would so dearly love to walk along a sandy beach somewhere !!!
I am Pisces and always feel relaxed and in tune with myself when I am near water.
Be it pond, lake, river or Ocean, the effect is still the same.
Just different vistas.
Deep peace of the running wave to me.